Chased Dreams by Lacey Weatherford

Author:Lacey Weatherford
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: romance, young adult, ebook, football, social issues, bestseller, new adult, contempoaray

Chapter Seventeen

“Chase. Chase. I miss you.” Nikki’s voice filtered into my sleep, causing me to wake up. As soon as I opened my eyes, my ears started ringing, accompanied by an excruciating headache. Sitting up carefully, so I wouldn’t disturb Brittney, I rubbed at my temples and the back of my neck, trying to ease the incessant pounding.

Despite the pain in my head, the pain in my heart was worse. I could still hear her soft words in my mind. My subconscious seemed to remember everything about her, with clarity.

Despite all the time she’d been gone, I could still feel her with me, connected somehow. I wasn’t sure how, or why, but it was making me feel slightly crazy. Why was I all of a sudden becoming so reattached to her again? I knew I would always love her—she was my first love; but it was more than that. She had been everything to me, giving me a world that I wanted to live in again. The ache of losing her would be something I carried with me for the rest of my life.

Getting up, I wandered into the bathroom, digging through the medicine cabinet for some painkillers, before heading to the kitchen for some water. I popped the pills and sat the glass down on the counter, staring off at nothing.

What the hell was the matter with me? My life was amazing. Yes, the road had been a bit on the bumpy side lately, but I still had my beautiful wife. Soon, I’d have a beautiful child, too. I had loving family to go home to—so why the constant connection with Nikki?

I’d lost my father and my grandfather, and while I still felt connected to them, as well, their deaths didn’t affect me nearly as badly as Nikki’s. Maybe it was because she’d felt like my soul mate. For whatever reason, I couldn’t get past my grief from losing her.

Memories of time spent together flitted through my mind. Moments of laughter, cuddling, and some extremely hot make-out sessions, threatened to overwhelm me. I not only missed her as my girlfriend, but as my friend, too. She was so easy to talk to. I’d spent hours with her wrapped up in my arms as we talked aimlessly, effortlessly, together. She had truly become my best friend.

I wondered about what my life would be like right now, if she’d lived. Would we have stayed together? Would we be married? Would we have kids of our own? I know I wanted that with her, badly.

Just thinking of these things brought on the guilt. I loved Brittney, too. She’d been able to reach me in a way that no one else could, when I most desperately needed it. My love for her was intense, but still felt different from what I’d experienced with Nikki. I guess that was to be expected though. No one feels exactly the same about any person they meet.

“Chase? Are you all right?” Brittney’s soft voice came from behind me and I turned to face her.

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